I can’t write. I’m having a hard time writing.
I come here and I start writing and get an introduction out and then my entire mind just goes blank and I can’t figure out how to transition into the body of the article, much less figure out what the body should be…
So I save the unfinished post and walk away thinking I’ll work on it later, but when I come back to write again, I give up and open a new draft and the entire process starts over…
There are currently about 12 posts in draft from the last week.
But, I wanted to say, I’m here.
And I’m trying to write…
I want to remember this country, our life here.
I don’t want to forget a thing…
The balance of actually living it and living to remember it is exhausting…
The boys and I have plane tickets.
We have a few more weeks here and then we’ll take our suitcases to the airport and hop on a plane.
I’m struggling with the fact that we won’t be here when the movers pack our things.
Leaving with suitcases feels so… temporary. And this move is anything but temporary.
David is still fighting for his terminal leave. What the finance office says he has and what we say he has is not the same… It’s par for the course and it’ll either work out or it won’t…
Either way, he’ll be back in Alabama in late September or early October and officially out of the Army sometime in November.
What happens from there?
We have. no. idea.
We’ve tossed around ideas about him going to school on the G.I. Bill and which companies and job fields he’d like to work for.
Truthfully, we won’t know anything until he gets home and can actually start interviewing, or the G.I. Bill paperwork works out and a good school opportunity falls into place.
It’s stressful. This decision is stressful and we’ve had many arguments over the past few weeks about the lack of a plan.
The one thing I get comfort from is that, even though the “easy” answer would be to stay in the Army, neither one of us have suggested that.
What lies ahead is going to be rough and hard and stressful and we’re going to be flat. broke. for a long time… But, all of that will be better than continuing on with deployments and the stress-filled craziness this military life brings with it.
Here’s to non-military stress-filled craziness…
|David’s ETS orders|