Then came the hard realization that sometimes, you can’t catch them; and sometimes, they fly right out of your hands when you peek in to see them. Next came the harder realization that if you hold them too tight, or put them in a jar for safe-keeping, they’ll get squished or suffocate. The boys squished the dead fireflies, and taunted each other with the glowing insides… When it was time to clean up, Cade wiped his hands on his shirt, and said, Momma. Glowing guts are hard to wash off.
Glowing guts are hard to wash off.
That’s the thing about all of this… It’s not just one ache, it’s all the aches that first ache brings with it. It only takes one person to make a marriage changing decision like the one I made nearly two months ago… It was my decision. I own it. I chose this. David didn’t choose to leave, he didn’t choose to pack his bags- if I gave him back his house key tomorrow, his clothes would be unpacked faster than my work day would be over. But the thing is… I chose this; I chose to squish the lightning bug in my hands, I chose to see what would happen if I pulled the glowing tail off…
Does Daddy love you? Yes.
Does Mommy love you? Yes.
Do Mommy and Daddy yell at each other a lot? Sometimes.
Do you want Mommy and Daddy to stop yelling? Yes.